I though it was different
When i was kid, i was used to play dumb things, toys and also make some friends. Every day, i keep doing the same thing — play and play again. The smile in my face had never fade away, as i was enjoying my life. Problem? I would ask you again what does problem means in that time.
Hungry? Nevermind, my mom here to cook the meal for me!
Oops, my shirt get dirt. Nevermind, my mom here to do the laundry!
Don't have money to buy sweet? Nevermind, my dad here to give some to me!
I was trapped in the comfort zone for long time. People will do everything for me, like buy some sweet and new toys, bring me to the park and also send my meal to the school canteen if i forgot to bring it.
But when i was younger, i have been wondering what does it feels like to be an adult. From the movies and some television series that i had watched, i found that being an adult is somehow interesting. You can buy car and house by yourself. You are free to go out with some friends without need your parent accompanied. You can use smartphone all way you want. I only see the good sides for being adult only and thinking it was good to grow up faster.
When i was new in primary, i used to be a really good student. I always finished all the homeworks given by the teachers on the right time. After back from school, my schedule full with study, study and study. Oh, how lifeless was i. I also always got bullied, since i'm not talking too much. People keep took my stuff, throwing hate and lies to me. My days are not complete without tears.
On that time, i can't wait to be an adult and grow up faster. It's because i though being an adult can get rid myself from being bullied. And my though was true as i got stop bullied since i'm growing up more.
When i was secondary, i was too happy. I'm free to use smartphone, i can buy all the things i want by myself. I was thinking that life can be happier than this. I feel like YOLO.
but, it just for a time being only.
Day by day, and time by time. Problems keep ruining my life without having its finish line. Too much, really. My days also full of tears, from getting bullied to getting problems.
I hate life.
And i'm starting to miss my kid days.
The one that have no problems, no worries. The one that always happy, and i only see colours in my life. I miss my kid days. How i wonder can turn back the time and stop growing up.
I don't want to grow up.
I hate to grow up.
And i'm afraid to face the next challanges which will hit me soon in my life. I am not ready yet.
I'm fear of this cruel world.
I though being adult is the best things ever, i though it was different in other ways. Yeah, i only see the good side until i forgot the bad side.
Can i stop from growing up?
Hungry? Nevermind, my mom here to cook the meal for me!
Oops, my shirt get dirt. Nevermind, my mom here to do the laundry!
Don't have money to buy sweet? Nevermind, my dad here to give some to me!
I was trapped in the comfort zone for long time. People will do everything for me, like buy some sweet and new toys, bring me to the park and also send my meal to the school canteen if i forgot to bring it.
But when i was younger, i have been wondering what does it feels like to be an adult. From the movies and some television series that i had watched, i found that being an adult is somehow interesting. You can buy car and house by yourself. You are free to go out with some friends without need your parent accompanied. You can use smartphone all way you want. I only see the good sides for being adult only and thinking it was good to grow up faster.
When i was new in primary, i used to be a really good student. I always finished all the homeworks given by the teachers on the right time. After back from school, my schedule full with study, study and study. Oh, how lifeless was i. I also always got bullied, since i'm not talking too much. People keep took my stuff, throwing hate and lies to me. My days are not complete without tears.
On that time, i can't wait to be an adult and grow up faster. It's because i though being an adult can get rid myself from being bullied. And my though was true as i got stop bullied since i'm growing up more.
When i was secondary, i was too happy. I'm free to use smartphone, i can buy all the things i want by myself. I was thinking that life can be happier than this. I feel like YOLO.
but, it just for a time being only.
Day by day, and time by time. Problems keep ruining my life without having its finish line. Too much, really. My days also full of tears, from getting bullied to getting problems.
I hate life.
And i'm starting to miss my kid days.
The one that have no problems, no worries. The one that always happy, and i only see colours in my life. I miss my kid days. How i wonder can turn back the time and stop growing up.
I don't want to grow up.
I hate to grow up.
And i'm afraid to face the next challanges which will hit me soon in my life. I am not ready yet.
I'm fear of this cruel world.
I though being adult is the best things ever, i though it was different in other ways. Yeah, i only see the good side until i forgot the bad side.
Can i stop from growing up?
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